I'm really bad at my job
my first office job and I've been here a year. I have no reason to not know what to do, but I seriously never know what the hell to do.
my job is like being a glorified secretary, but I have to so a bunch of other stuff. I ordered cups on friday to be delivered today. they were not delivered today and people complained about there not being cups in the break room. i guess it's my fault, even if its not.
I'm not close with anyone. Not close enough to call them friends. to be fair most people there are the academics who are much older, so they don't care about me on a personal level. But it gets really annoying being alone at work.
My smile is so exaggerated i think people can tell it's fake. My manager is a woman who gossips and her position is essentially useless. She's supposed to be able to replace us in the event we leave, but she doesn't know how to do anything. They made up her position then filled her old one with a newcomer. I wonder how much she gets paid. I didn't have a manger before her.
I'm also really disconnected to the company culture. I don't go to events if I dont have to. I dont do anything extra. i will try to decline as many meetings as possible.
I'm not sure if all jobs are like this. In my past library jobs, i was more engaged even if I didn't like it. I always did extra. Not sure what is wrong with me now. This is a dream job for many. Its essential, cushy, I have my own office, and can eat when I want, and I get paid an okay amount -- not that it matters because I live with my parents lmao. I could move out at this point, but I'm so certain that I will leave this job soon that I don't want to sign a lease. I almost moved out in November 2025, but then Zuckerberg or Gates implanted a chip in my brain that made me believe that I wont be at this job much longer.