1.5 years since a date
I wrote an emotionally charged post in March. It felt like a page full of complaining, which I hate reading myself. But I also wish there were similar posts that are candid about their dating struggles that don't coat it in "It will come when I least expect it" or "Dating [sex] is useless because they ALL suck."
It's been over a year since my last date. This is kinda from lack of trying; I don't have those apps anymore. Hinge/Tinder/Bumble dates are easy to get since many people will go on dates with anyone. If it doesn't work, then they at least get a hookup, then if it works you get a relationship. A win-win in their heads. At least that's my impression.
I've never been on a date with someone I met "organically". Every date was from an app. But i feel like without the apps, i wouldn't get dates. So i have a love-hate relationship with them.
I don't think there is a perfect person out there. There are always going to be traits that don't align. I'm far from perfect myself. When someone asks me what my type is, I struggle to describe a person beyond the basic "my type is a guy who wants to be with me." I wrote in my journal that i can't imagine someone describing their type by listing my traits, personality or otherwise. estoy loco. I don't think my life loses value if I'm single forever, ==but that doesn't mean I will be jolly about it. However, I'm OK with being the single auntie who spoils her nieces and nephews.
When I was in high school, I didn't care to be in relationships like every other teenager. I didn't expect to be the crush of anyone. I did attract the attention of one guy friend who asked me out to the winter dance, but he ended up getting expelled for fighting so that didn't happen...I think he's in real estate now, good for him!
I wish I could adopt that careless high school attitude. I think I only care now because it feels like I'm falling behind. Within my subsociety I am falling behind, let's be real.
Anyways, my little sister is getting proposed to in the next year. By a boy she met on Tinder. Her bf told me about it, I can tell he was nervous to tell me haha. Insane development for my 21 year old girlboss sister, but I'm happy for her. I can't wait to help plan her wedding.